For some reason I have been playing a lot of pickup basketball games here lately… like more in the past two weeks than I have played since I graduated high school four years ago. And usually about 5 minutes into the game I am sucking wind & shooting air balls (such a valuable teammate).
Ya know, I would like to think that when I played sports full time, even if I wasn’t the best player, I was at least in shape enough to run around the court… Those days are over.
Usually after I lose these pickup games, my mind reels through everything I did wrong & I empathize for my teammate(s), furthermore I get ill tempered… because I hate to lose.
As crazy as it sounds, throughout these past weeks of getting slaughtered on the basketball court I have learned something about myself: I am prideful.
Learning you are prideful is almost like finding out you have had a booger in your nose for an hour & everyone either noticed or they didn’t and you are just flat out embarrassed. You look into the bathroom mirror and you are like, “Bless girl, has that nasty booger been there the whole time? You need to fix yourself.”
There are products of my pride: a losing spirit & a selfish attitude. I am learning (esp. over the last several months) that I can be SO selfish.
Selfishness is putting yourself before others, and why? Because you obviously see yourself/your needs are more important.
A losing spirit is one that drags you down, & tries to defeat you. You would think pride builds you up, right? Sometimes.. and then other times it pulls you straight down because you think you are hot stuff & when something doesn’t go exactly how you wanted you fall flat on your face.
“Pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall.” – Proverbs 16:18
Being convicted of my prideful nature has been a reality check, but I am thankful. With each conviction I am reassured that my sweet Father in Heaven is not finished with me yet.
Pride is a hindrance for the plans God has for our lives. It gets in the way of God’s will and says, “You are most important, Abby. Save yourself first. Take care of yourself. Justify yourself.”
Y’all, it should be the other way around.
- You, Jesus, are most important to me. Because you already know my life story & saved my soul I will live to follow you and glorify your name.
- Save me, Lord, because I am unable to save myself.
- Look out for others. Why? “Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others.” Philippians 2:4
- Only through Jesus Christ by the death on the cross of Calvary will I ever be justified.
The world tells us to take care of ourselves, do what feels good. Who cares what God thinks? Do what makes YOU happy. This is a lie. This is pride showing its ugly face in our society.
” 6Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, so that in due time He may exalt you. 7Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you. 8Be sober-minded and alert. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. 9Resist him, standing firm in your faith and in the knowledge that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kinds of suffering.” 1 Peter 5:6-9
I pray today that if you struggle with pride, you are reminded as I have been that we are called to humble ourselves. To become people that realize how small we really are, so that our God can show us how big He is. To be alert of evil that seeks to destroy us and distort God’s will in our lives.
I challenge you today, to look within & see where pride reeks havoc in your soul, confess it and allow the grace of God to humble you and restore you.